Yesterday, I was very tired and sat down to make something in clay. I can squish anyway, I thought. I looked around at a little sculpture that I had made a long time ago, something I enjoyed making and now felt the energy of that experience coming through, and I wanted to make more of that energy come forward. I did not know what I was going to do, yet something began to unfold.
That seems like inspiration, but I was not inspired when I started. Nooo. But I did get my butt to the chair. So then today it is the same, I am not inspired but I am here, wondering what to attend to, what to place my attention upon?
oh that, talk about that?
Ok I am starting to explore being in a new relationship. It has been quite a while for me. I am going to meet a person for the second time tomorrow. All sorts of stuff is coming up, in my face, like an older ladies song about our bodies being well older and saggy. Will this person care about this, a turn on or off? And then there is the 'stuff'. Saturn the planet of taking one step at a time, of facing fears - growing and maturity - that holds the space to choose a new way, or stay untrapped in the old. I am for freedom, so this I feel is my way of creatively facing these issues, and transforming.
Can I let the stuff be shelved and just have fun? or weave it into the fiber of each moment, so it Yes, I can have permission to do that, and not so serious. Healing is a bouquet, all sorts of flowers....in love and life.
The good thing about being older, is I have alot of experience in what I do not want, and know I don't need to go there, and I know myself much better. To welcome in a new partner is for me an adventure, that is being led by divine will too. I get to show up, just like with the clay play.
How about you, where is your creativity leading you?
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