A familiar pattern has been surfacing for me, I know from experience to not invalidate myself, I am in a new place with it, even though it seems not. And to own that this is what I am wanting to learn about, master. Some one once said to focus on the gain and not the loss.
Being a person with alot of mutability, wateriness, boundaries are challenging, but oh so necessary. I can splash around quite easily and slop over the edges. But I am realizing it is draining for me to be in situations that this happens, my energy system gives me strong feedback - that I am not taking care of my resources.
The people pleasing theme, of needing to be needed can trigger this, wanting to be loved -and boy do I loose my boundaries. I feel the key here is kindness, compassion and forgiveness with the process, that is with my relationship with my core issue, that is success, verses being a bully to myself. And also then being the strong guardian to stand up for my truth - what I need to ask for - that I have not been doing - which is a way of debting oneself.
What we value, we need to make real in our own lives first. Valuing our unique gifts, taking care of them,
This is a good article on some retrograde planets and the energies they are helping us to transform - relating - shifting out of behaviour based in antiquated family and societal beliefs- this particular cycle is going on for about 6 months after which we will see the effects of our inner work. bon voyage
I have been attracted to being in groups, creating them or joining. I went to a delightful art group once and then did not go yet again.
A gal from the class called me up and asked why I was not going. She said, "You did a nice painting and everyone liked it, but you hardly received their compliments. Sometimes we need to push ourselves with things we need to do... I hope you decide to go to the class"
Wow, I don't usually get that sort of feedback, I paid attention. What is needing shifting in me, being able to receive more...?I feel a bit judging myself for being there, or maybe compassion is a more fitting choice, for myself and letting me be exactly where I am.
I have a practice of looking a page of orchid essences in the morning - I use kinesiology to wiz through to see what my subconscious is working on today and the orchid that shows up, I ask to help with that issue.
Heart of Light (Phragmipedium Grouville) was indicated today - for letting go of defensive emotional patterns. Rapidly releases emotional armoring of the heart chakra, expanding the chest, enables the heart chakra to connect to higher wisdom.
Thank you Phragmipedium Grouville
This is a rich potent time of year, wrap ourselves in gentle vibrations.
Any thoughts, I love to hear from you, Jill
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