"Oh boy, I have a first grandchild, a boy. I went to see him, and there was a bit of drama that I have not been very good at shaking off. I am seeing a shaggy dog being able to shake himself of water. He has so much fur it never really gets to the skin. Where did my fur go?
I was wet, glum, letting it saturate in, in, in. I went to my pilates class, she looked at me and said, "I want to help you find your true nourishment. "
As I followed the directions, she reminded me of my soul, that it is a higher perspective, and delights in all the experiences we get our selves into, to help us remember who we are and are not. That sounded familiar. I think I have said to other people, but I am 'in' it now.
I breathe, keep following the directions - shoulder blades, rhomboids contact the floor...
There is an internal conversation... some part of me is insisting these sad thoughts and feelings are very real, and important and I need to pay attention to them, "remember this is your truth"
This is really a good arguer, showing me these images of past experiences to prove.....
Suddenly the thought comes that this is my ego talking. Very much wanting me to beleive that what I have been experiencing is real.
Yet as I keep breathing, a larger space is here of basic awareness, not demanding anything. This is what is becoming more real, as I deepen into each point of connection, just space, no story.
So funny, I don't usually see my "ego", It is some part very much insisting it is right, that this drama is real.
Breathe. the session is over.
I get up and share this internal conversation," that was my ego, arguing that stuff is real -*&%^$#! It is not real.
"Yes, I see you have shifted to your higher perspective, your energy has shifted. Wonderful to see that happen. You as a soul are huge, now you are there."
I could see how my energy had gotten scattered in different spaces, and I gently called it back into the center of my head, the spiritual heart, where discernment lives. ......................................................... Our souls have infinite patience, and unconditional love for us on our journeys, always kind, and nonjudgemental.