Some times I wonder what I am doing, being a psychic.
Because it is going on all the time, we are mostly hardly conscious of it.
I was in a healing clinic the other day and will give a simple example. A woman asked for a healing on an issue. She was not there in person. We tuned into her through her name, and then as the question was asked looked at the colors lighting up in her spiritual space. In clairvoyance - when we look, we are seeing with the eyes of spirit, and simultaneously brings awareness to the those spaces for the soul we are looking at.
So I was looking at some green energy and started to talk about it, as if she could hear, and I could see as I shared this communication her spirit was attending to those energies. It was instantaneous. I was in wordless awe of how capable this soul was.
Sometimes our lives may not look like anything is happening, or it is difficult - but having communication always helps us to recognize our wholeness, restores spirit - is healing and helps us take our next step.
I am not feeling very good, a bit ungrounded and agitated. To have the idea that transition is smooth - the inbetweenness. Right now I am feeling uncomfortable. I can not even decide whether to plant flowers on my deck - I called a few people to reach out, and one friend called back agreeing that he feels a bit stuck too.
Phew, it is not just me
I have been noticing I am worried about rent and money - survival issues- the rents are going up up up - I said I am becoming the effect of those energies - I am good at that - ha what would I do with myself if I was not matching something?
Perhaps the question is - if I a going to match - this is short for being the same vibration as- what do I want to match - fear and worry or - joy and peace.
My friend asked how I was doing with my brain injury. I need to stretch my back to keep the flow going so my head stays more open. That is a daily exercise among others.
Daily - attending to- breathe and let go.
I was listening to a meditation, that our minds create our reality, so to know what the mind is creating subconsciously is a practice that takes alot of kindness and nonjudgement to explore.
I have alot of fighting going on on this level, one idea that is beside another and they are each fighting to survive, getting louder and louder. I am real, pay attention to me. No I am, and there is only so much space here, I am most important, I will be the better investment for you. No no, I am real, real real.
One is saying you need to be___________ to be, and another do ___________, and have ________ to be.
But I already am.
I am seeing these are ideas I don't have to keep enlivening with my energy. I am imagining a big balloon with all of this and letting the gas out, my energy - to return to me.
It is embarrassing to realize I have been letting myself be controlled by these ideas, on a subconscious level. But even the embarrassment can be a control energy that keeps me hiding. Like being a child and feeling like you did something wrong. I think that is the ego , the bully playing with one's feelings, to stay stuck.
It is challenging to see this alone, I find it helps to share with other people to find objectivity - neutrality. I can't see my own stuff all the time by myself - that is why we have each other and it is more fun to laugh with someone too.
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