I saw that quote by Wayne Dyer in Oprah Magazine while I was checking out at the grocery store. But what if you see so many perspectives? Which one, which one...
To me nothing is fixed, except when I am stuck. I get stuck all the time. My toilet mirrors this, some resistance to letting go. Oh Darn!
I notice people are saying things and those things seem true, so true, a perspective I have worn til it builds a reality around me, thick with solid foundations, a house or prison I have built for myself, by feeding energy into particular thoughts over and over.
Then I am with someone who is neutral, and loving. I say those words and realize they are not true, if I don't want them to be. It is so simple, it is embarrassing,
Being ok with embarrassment is great progress. Instead of the pride or arrogance, of letting it control. Ok there I made a mistake, an interesting creation that had well, interesting manifestations. poof, onward. We can as easily take down the house/prison and letting that go, create from a new perspective of willingness to be innocent, compassionate, nonjudgemental, kind to ourselves on our unique path.
Learning to be, expanding into more of who we are, and taking care of that, or remembering that we are beings, beingness, unlimited, yet have a body to express through, is a process of growth, that we are all on path with, in some way or other. It is unique to each of us. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it. Things can feel like crap, confusion, etc.
For me, it starts with awareness. What am I choosing to validate, focus on? When we validate spirit, things change for the better. It may not feel better instantaneously - spirit is no time no space, but the body - earth dimension moves more slowly, so integration takes some time. Taking care - through helping the body release is important. (water, exercise, rest, movement, good nourishment on all levels) What is not ours can drop off. Not being in resistance helps, also cultivating neutrality and amusement. To chuckle inwardly, like the Buddha.
Trusting our intuition is also part of self care. What is it pointing us toward.? Intuition sees a bigger picture, like the birds in the sky, a higher view, unattached, free, encouraging us to know we are too.
Yesterday, I was very tired and sat down to make something in clay. I can squish anyway, I thought. I looked around at a little sculpture that I had made a long time ago, something I enjoyed making and now felt the energy of that experience coming through, and I wanted to make more of that energy come forward. I did not know what I was going to do, yet something began to unfold.
That seems like inspiration, but I was not inspired when I started. Nooo. But I did get my butt to the chair. So then today it is the same, I am not inspired but I am here, wondering what to attend to, what to place my attention upon?
oh that, talk about that?
Ok I am starting to explore being in a new relationship. It has been quite a while for me. I am going to meet a person for the second time tomorrow. All sorts of stuff is coming up, in my face, like an older ladies song about our bodies being well older and saggy. Will this person care about this, a turn on or off? And then there is the 'stuff'. Saturn the planet of taking one step at a time, of facing fears - growing and maturity - that holds the space to choose a new way, or stay untrapped in the old. I am for freedom, so this I feel is my way of creatively facing these issues, and transforming.
Can I let the stuff be shelved and just have fun? or weave it into the fiber of each moment, so it Yes, I can have permission to do that, and not so serious. Healing is a bouquet, all sorts of flowers....in love and life.
The good thing about being older, is I have alot of experience in what I do not want, and know I don't need to go there, and I know myself much better. To welcome in a new partner is for me an adventure, that is being led by divine will too. I get to show up, just like with the clay play.
How about you, where is your creativity leading you?
Before I had my head injury I could grasp alot of concepts and keep them in my head, that was a way I communicated, through those ideas.
Such as astrology. I can't do it like I used to
Now I am contemplating this, and I am seeing my heart as the center, where everything can be accessed, that is true. It naturally is in sync with the astrological, because we are made up of that energy. Nothing is separate. The same song is playing throughout the universe. And we are each expressing it in a unique way that is responded to by and is responsive to each other in the symphony. And who is conducting? Is there a conductor?
I could say I believe, but that is not true. I know, there is, a piece of which resides in each of us. In the heart.
I know there is a lot of research proving the conductivity of the heart, but when years ago that was not a popular idea. I went to a cadaver class, and the guide was saying the heart muscle was the only organ that could shift it's rhythm to another heart. Becoming in resonance is what it is called, the Institute of Heartmath is all about this.
So validating one's heart, the God of one's heart, to be the center, the tone of our day...and notice
I would love to hear from you, lovelies
How much are you able to have? Of this life? How much permission to you have to receive the bounty that is always there, waiting always, for you to say Yes.
We can have blind spots to this brilliance, that is available, it is actually who we are... our magnificence. Yet there can be a shroud of shadow, we have shadow.
Wrapped around. Or perhaps the shadow can be fashioned into a beautiful garment, its design flattering the wonder of you, honoring and respecting the pain, shame, anger,... one could also say those are passionate feelings, as parts of the rainbow of weave, our threads of humanness, weaving into who we are, along with the laughter and joy, All blending, dissolving, together.
It is helpful to have a friend with a discerning eye, to help us see our magnificence, our unique creativity, Where you have "really" been and where you are going. Beyond the worldly snags and potholes that, if we let it can muss up our finery. No one, or no thing, or circumstance can do this, unless we let it. yet we all stumble, get stuck, there is not shame in that, it part of the journey
I like to imagine an umbrella above my head, it dances with the stars. It's spokes ray out kindness, compassion, neutrality, groundedness, truth, healing, creativity, appreciation, self responsibility, amusement, clarity... As the light of the all giving comes down -solar flares too- I am powered by these rays of refined fuel filtering through my custom umbrella.
How are you experiencing these gorgeous days?
As I begin my day, I don't know what to do. This is common. I remember I need to take a drink. What day is it? My awareness clambers around, " Isn't there something I am supposed to be doing?
I ponder about making something useful, be useful Jill, be of service, don't be a bad girl, now, you are moving a bit slow, can you be more efficient? No, yes your legs are dry, you can put lotion on them, just hurry up now.
'here here, here, make something useful of your day, don't just sit there. Well my body is, I can't seem to get in gear. What gear do you want to be in?
good question, well my business gear I suppose, it is a week day, a work day.
Well, for every question there sure is an answer, no end to you and you and you chipping in your answers. Maybe I am asking the wrong questions right now. like I got out of bed on the wrong side. Oh is there a right or wrong question, good bad, judgement.
"I am just crazy for you
Isn't that a song? Or is it "I'm crying for you?"
Ok, I am nuzzling my self out of being so serious. Seriously, crazy has alot of energy on it eh, like don't go there, Do NOt enter" YOu know alot of people who are " challenged by this, don't you? SO? Hey what is beyond that sign any way. I am curious,, you know when there is that taboo, then it is time to take a peak A peek at a peak?
Longs Peak's snow is melting, clouds hover in close.
That may be, somewhere around here, I know I have some considerations to make. I am reviewing my yesterday adventure, sifting through the sparkling trinkets, they look like gold, smell like gold, but, I see they are fools gold. For me anyway.
Ta Ta, are you sure??????
I am seeing a garden gate, it is white pickets, like the ones I had in my back yard growing up. There was no gate, just a nice opening, a path that met the neighbors drive way. I painted that fence in the summer, a good manageable task to help the family, and I got to be good girl in the summer.
I am remembering a bit of a story I have been reading, where a pioneer family from the east, starts off with their load of belongings, continually having to make choices about what to leave behind on the horrendous journey. A precious feather bed is repeatedly chosen, to be lugged over mountains, across raging rivers... giving comfort to sleep on yet, treacherous to carry. The very first person who greets them, on the shore of their new home is a friendly native, who is eager to trade. He is in a canoe full of cargo, feathers, which he will trade for 2 cups of molasses.
Feathers, feathers, feathers
I see the eagles that are circling on air currents. Surfing on air, way way up high., no effort. They just know how to sta I look down at the road, momentarily, then look back, they have disappeared.
We have a thick stack of filters, that we function and look through, shaping our perceptions and our actions. As with many filters, alot of clear light does not get through to see clearly. Until we begin to take these filters off, see them as that, we are being more the effect of them, verses the pure light or truth.
These filters come from many places, it doesn't matter really where they came from. They are falling off though.
On the spiritual path, step by step means we take the journey at a pace we can handle. When we let go of a filter, it is a new space to grow into, a spaciousness. Not something to be feared, but the body needs to adjust. Giving yourself permission and allowing, and having some like minded souls to connect with, as your reality shifts, who are supportive, and joyful of your step, is helpful. You are not going crazy, it can seem that way, when we start lifting into who we are, turning onto the path home, verses what appears to be rea;lity.
The universe - the stars... nature... is supporting us in this, and we do it together with each other,
this place the family has called home, a second home, a gathering place.
It has the reputation of being miserable, there
who wants to go, there?
I look there
I see heaps of stuff, old stuff - ways of being that are not useful now, toy landscapes with no life, no light on, yet no one bothered to look and see.
Oh them, yes, we are still here, can you believe it?
I do, you haven't even aged, still 6.7,8 or 4.56, or 13.14.15.
You here again.
yep, I like to travel,
What do you need?
You don't know? This is new for you to be seen? You are enough, just as you are, you can drop holding on to that, there. You will not die, cease to exist, no. It is landscape you keep looking at, not real. There, there you go.
What is that? oh, there is always more. more real estate, to claim. For today this in enough.
Will the others want to come too? Now? To the new?
I don't know, it does not matter. One is enough.
This morning getting out of the shower, my row of necklaces tacked to the bathroom wall caught my eye. A few made of grass by women in Africa...my thought then went to the generous handful draped on Liz, the owner of the gift store where I bought them a few years ago.
They were so beautiful, so many colors, I enjoyed this feast of color against her chartruese chenille sweater. Was it just the colors or maybe also the joy and mystery deeper still, alive. Well, if I was wearing them, I couldn't see them. we can't see ourselves, but we can see what others show to us. We are not separate.
Today, that image gave me pleasure again. It seemed to have a message for me. I don't have to go buy those necklaces, possess them, to experience them, appreciate. And what is it saying about what I do want to spend my time and energy on? How often do we miss what is right in front of our eyes, how truly rich the moment is, or are we focused on some futureness. or pastness, with filters on to the moment.
Permission to have it, is a resource to invest in.
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