ROI - return on investment...I have been struggling with this blog interface ggggrrrrrhhhhh. It used to be a bit more fun I thought.... anyway today
Do you realize you are not living with an Athiest?
I gathered that.
Is it like living with Trump?
Well you never know what he is going to spout out, what he believes, it is always changing. that is scarey
Well things are changing all the time.
You have to believe in something!
I suppose I believe but also there is knowingness, to be receptive to discovering that. When I studied Steiner, it was about observing, not having filters of ideas about what was going on with my kids or any thing. Not from my ego, but a larger place that is aware of more.
A memory flashed up.. Once I was in Boulder, driving down a residential street,, a faster moving one, and I saw a child on a bike and I knew she was going to fall off, which she did just before I passed her. I froze-kept driving, In my mind I started shaming myself for not going back, but I also say in my rear view mirror another car had already stopped so I knew she was taken care of. I processed this with a mixture of all the implications of this knowingness, including memory of falling off my bike as a tike, times I had shut it off at some point(s) because I was afraid of the consequences, didn't use it "correctly" Is there a tad of judgement there?? ha ha ha
As I was checking out at the grocery store, the woman bagging moaned " I just know the next phone call is going to be my kids having a hard time at school." The cashier reminded her of how her kids did sound excited and willing to go to their respective new schools.
Coming home I noticed some "other" plants in the Lilac bushes. I thought maybe I should be doing something more useful, but got the clippers anyway. I find being with the plants very enjoyable. Weeding what does not belong - weed trees. It is already quite enough, this garden, old and well established, but not taken care of in a long time. I have spent this year observing it, seeing what is already planted, what it does - when -learning to "prune", recognize weeds, realize I can create a garden or let one go! and here are some lilies that already bloomed and are deciding to bloom again!
For me blooming has something to do with forgiveness, acceptance, and gratitude for being creative.
I can do that too! you can too, why not!
Along with my art practice, I give souls on the move who may be a little stuck, help with resetting their energy.
See my front page for services.
Today the first Zinnia bloomed in my world of summer.
I took an early morning walk on a quiet country road. When I was finished, I drove slowly down the road. A van came up behind me. I pulled over to let it by. The van pulled up next to me. With both our windows down I saw 2 guys.
The fellow in the passenger seat was saying in voice and gesture "Your passenger side brake light is out".
I repeated what he said, so he knew I understood, grateful that they let me know.
How else do you find these things out without some one else to look, and let you know?
I reviewed the moment after and sensed they went out of their way to give a positive friendly caring gesture - not wanting to scare me. Perhaps, I also let go of some images of " men in vans on quiet country roads".
I have seen lots of cute images of birds resting on the edge of a bird bath, on cards, sculpture..
.in this new place I live there was an object in the garden - I finally figured out it was the pedestal bottom of a bird bath.
I can restore this!
I found a top at a gardening store placed it a part of the yard I thought would be nice for the birds. It sat and I saw no bird flutter in for a splash. I moved it to a new location, a bit more private. Still no sweet birds on the edge. But my oh my was the water dirty. And so fast. I don't know if I can refill this every day. It occurred to me in the middle of the night I created a wonderful breeding pool for mosquitoes. A quiet but audible voice said "Stupid you should have thought that one out first." Well thank you for your opinion.
Fortunately I have created alot of permission and space to make mistakes or is it create and destroy! I don't have to be a slave to former decisions. Destroy - Create.
There are places that are hard to become conscious of on my own - blind spots- where it helps to have a partner who can look with me. I receive guidance this way and also offer it to souls seeking to reclaim more of their inner light
We are experiencing alot of rain storms here, they are quite lovely. The basement is a Michigan cellar, meaning a low ceiling with iffy walls. These are crumbling and let in the moisture - the dehumidifier is full, probably before I have even finished shutting the trap door in the pantry that is the entrance. Well, it has been doing this for a long time before I got here - 160 years, most of those folks probably did not have a dehumifier.
I can either get into resistance to all of this or be neutral, and have some amusement, not let it rule.
Today I am as most always struggling with the features on the back side of my blog. I would like to post a title in the "Post Title space but it is not working, I will go to customer support, eventually but for now I want to get the idea down I have been thinking about.
Which is " all experience is neutral"... I am seeing some experiences I had after my hit on the head and was relearning to own my space. I thought I could not remember what that was, or where or how.
I decided to teach a little class "Making your totem hat". Two people came. I had a lot of fun in the class, but after - the party continued. I was trashed. I asked a friend to give me a healing, and I went to his house to have him do this. I sat on a chair and he proceeded to help me shift the energy, communicating along the way.. something about my aura being as big as a house... "oh I see, I grounded the house through me, every one in it too! Where should it be?"
"In and close to your physical body."
"That's a new idea to me! " We both laughed.
He helped me release all the people in my space and fill in with my own energy.
Another time I was receiving a biofeedback treatment from a fellow, very aware of energy. He kept saying how nice my energy felt, in different ways, on and on, the bonding hormone... he did have a wife... On an intellectual level I did not understand, then all of a sudden I got it, my energy bubble was way out. Instantly it shifted. He thanked me.
These are two colorful, funny examples of learning to master my energy, at a new level. To me it helps fellow travelers and myself that don't take waking up so serious, and have amusement, kindness, compassion, and forgiveness, neutrality in the playground with me.
Can you remember any of your learning experiences from a more neutral perspective?
Hello! I have been absent from blogging for a while to make a move across country.
I just saw a clip of Mr. Rogers talking to senators.."In a healthy family a child learns trust." His devotion to children is a gift. How devoted are we to healing our own inner child?
Any group I participate in, is like family - and I bring my trust issues there. I am making progress - to lead from my adult self and heal the child parts that get activated.
As I peel my own "onion" one theme-a core issue-seems to keep me in a self protecting bubble of fear and non-trust. I was a forceps birth, hesitating before entering the world, hesitating as I enter each day. The flower essence Mimulus speaks to this hesitation, and helps the soul contact the strength and purpose of its higher self, thus setting it free to experience life from greater curiosity, exuberance and joy.
So as a soul, I am working on this -creating space for - relationships I can gently have more trust in, from a space of worthiness and gratitude, and appreciation - to dance with. It is a new space fostered by self love and deep discernment about what is my energy and that of other, I have resisted and is not mine to heal. (oh, I do that!) Having amusement helps me not take things sooo seriously!
Do you have areas in your life that are so serious it is hard to get close enough to consider making changes? This is where having a guide can help. I do that.
I love hearing from you, Jill
I have been between a rock and a hard place, little wiggle room in my health space. I forgot and just remembered my Soil-less garden workbook, it is from
www.perelandra-ltd.com/. They teach a technique to create a soil-less garden, where you are in balance co-creating with nature. I have used the flower essences during learning (expansions) to help keep my CNS intact as I shift.
I often have a challenge with what question to ask or what order to do things, and whether these things are really in line with my timing and highest good. Working with nature is how to manifest a health, balanced goal. It is about us being evolutionary and nature being involutionary. You can find this info on the web site. I like it because there are many spiritual beings who are here to help us, for free - and this is a structured process to learn how.
I followed the steps, and at one point in a meditation, and noticed some ideas pop into my head. I need to start this health project with some cleansing. I used kinesiology to discern the method and happen to have all the stuff. Now to have discipline for the 5 days.
I can keep saying, it doesn't have to get worse thank you, and I am looking forward to feeling better.
I love the information Michaelle Small Wright offers. She is communicating with nature, and translates this into useable processes for we humans. In our ever excelerating times of expansion, staying in balance is crucial, these are excellent toos.
As a Clairvoyant practitioner, I need to exercise my clairvoyance to keep in shape, like a muscle, use it or loose it. I take classes sometimes and read with a group, which is set for growth and learning.
I have wanted to participate more. Last night after a group reading, I realized I bring my way of being in my family as a child into the reading space and the challenge is to keep coming back, not give up, or give my seniority to stuff that comes up, where I then loose focus on the readee...which is the point of the practice. Being able to hear and receive the feedback from the other practitioners, and have grace about it. I see others having courage to face their fears and take action. This inspires me to keep at it.
I feel like I am learning to learn in a way, making this a priority, writing things down to remember the next time. I feel by caring for this ability I have, I am valuing myself.
Do you have some area that you are challenging yourself to grow and learn. Do you have a supportive environment for that?
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