When I am taking a step, I sometimes go into making the thing I am letting go wrong, Then notice I am judging it, and then go, maybe that was good, then why am I letting go of it? It gets sort of like gum on my feet. ho ho
Here is a quote from Sarah Entrup that speaks to this:
"You DO NOT need to invalidate the past in order to transform or let go! Just because something no longer works in your life, it probably did at one point.
Healing is so much about getting current, and coming into present time in relationship to yourself and every thing in your life."
We can sometimes not feel that way though. What does it feel like to be powerful. For me, not in resistance, at peace with myself.
On the spiritual path I have been exploring jealousy and competition. I can tend to get in black and white about this. Spiritual competition is comparing yourself with another, and yet is really dividing yourself against you (not good enough) and this 'wilts' spiritual growth as we are all exactly where we need to be. Thinking we need to be better or different....not! I have been there and catch myself now too. It is all part of learning. Unconditional love and amusement, mistakes are healthy, in fact there are not mistakes it is all learning.
I remember talking to someone about really admiring someone, and she said, "You know the things you like in another person you have inside, you would not recognize them, you have just not owned them, or expressed them yet.
How then do we own where we are and be inspired, without invalidating ourselves. Inspiration comes from inside, verses matching where someone else is and becoming that reality. When we are learning something we copy. Until we can do it on our own, it is modeling learning. Artists do this with looking at others work and learning and synthesizing. And then there is modeling we had on an unconscious level, we copied there to. We try things on sometimes and the realize them don't fit. Some of all of that may not work for us.
To be in our power, and appreciate where another is at, and not lessen our own light. Giving them permission to be where they are, and likewise ourself. This is maybe learning to be equal. I am learning this. Gaining a knowingness of my own vibration helps, to then know when I am off, and being the effect of other energies.
I am learning to filter out what is helpful for me and leave the rest. It is a boundary like a cell membrane. This is a perceptual tool.
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How do you spend your time, with whom do you share your time, your love? We are what we appreciate.
for some reason, tis the season, I am up rooting old loves, old yet what is still alive? I trace back to my youth, when love was so innocent. I was like a puppy going where it was sunny and warm. I wandered to other homes and loved to feel what it was to spend time in a different environment.
I was talking on the phone with an old friend, "care for what you have" as she talked about the renovations they were doing to their house.
I don't have much to fix up in my physical house but the renovations in my astrological house of home - the 4th house - are in a newness, to be honest, intimacy, heart to heart, vulnerable. Leaning toward this as I plan my day who to appreciate, the flowers the people in my life.
I was invited to a birthday party of an old colleague, her #80 The group was going to chip in to help send her to a far away place.
For some reason, I got stuck. It was bothering me that we had to chip in. I was feeling like I had to do this, in order to go to celebrate. I decided not to go and left a message on the organizers home phone. Then I wondered am I missing something, this seems like an old pattern, arrogant, self righteous, I don't need any one, I am good alone.
I thought, I may be missing something here, maybe I am projecting.
I asked a helpful person. She said, "Imagine how your body would feel if you went to the party" I did this - I sort of disassociated and healed everyone.
"Imagine if you didn't go." I am feeling ok, comfortable, ordinary, sort of blah
"Imagine if you go and do not give money." I walk in and feel love for Sarah and joy, I feel so glad to be celebrating her life, just being. Some how I feel magnified being with others, instead of being at home alone.
This is sure interesting. I need to call the organizer back. I say, I will come, I can bring cupcakes. She says, there is going to be plenty of food, don't worry about it. I am so glad you are coming, Sarah will be glad to see you.
I say, " I felt like I had to do the money thing, that didn't seem to work for me.
"Don't worry about that, Sarah didn't want presents, we are ...
I don't know how much was mine, but I could tell, I have a choice - to welcome love or keep a wall up. I am good at this was my own wall, my inner hearing of what it was, not what was really there, or maybe there were more levels that I heard. Ouch. Some where a story of needing to give something besides being present. (It is not that I am opposed to giving, I give money to situations all the time) I thought I did not have an issue with contributing, that I needed to do it, yet I felt resentful. For me to see that my body felt better to be there without that obligation, no matter how true it was, I honored my body. How often do we mis-interprete, twist communication or not realize some agreements don't work for us adn go along anyway, feeling like shit later and wonder why. We don't have to be sheep, all lumped together. There are options. It is safe to know how I feel, and respect that. I am learning to discern and not be in black and white. And have courage to own my truth. I am glad I faced this bump.
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We are all going through some humongous shifts right now. it is good to drink lots of water, , take in some exercise, rest, be grateful for all of it. We are not going back, it is forward - you can ask for help to smooth your path. Focus on love, not fear that is coming up perhaps. Say hello to it, and ask who are you? What do you want?
Let the layers slid off, there is nothing to do but enjoy the lusciousness of life.
In love always Jill
I am writing to communicate, to see where I am, there is a bliss here, a wonder that a mystery is unfolding, everything is as it should be. The flowers in my home are bright. I bought a big ½ loaf of crusty bread at the farmers market. I don't think this is for me, I await where I may share it. And a box of chocolate cake mix, again... who is this for? This is a fun game.
I am writing to connect with you, who is another me, reaching out, to bring forth my love and joy, and ah, look there too burdens I have carried. To relinquish the separation, and allow it to be , all of it, The bubbling life, that is unstoppable, in you , in me. we are all one and one in all, beyond the mind is the heart, a soup of contagious love, enveloping, caring, holding, patient yet eager, coaxing us to trust our playful exuberance, our god All mightyness! This touching touching is life touching life, all of it, it is not separate, sometimes I have a perception of otherwise, I choose anew over and over. A new, unlike anything before. Choosing is creating. To open with new eyes, moment by moment.
We need each other. I do anyway. I am rediscovering this longing. This time is like no other, embrace it, make space for it, it needs big room, huge room, giant space, so it has space to be. Hello there! I welcome you. I show up to nurture you. This mystery, calling to be recognized, here in the blossom of the geranium, the hydrangea.
To me the energy is very fluid in creativity. It can be bewildering and chaotic yet also if we are grounded, the chaos can have a sort of order unto itself as the old goes to open space for the new.
We are each learning something different, how to recycle our material possessions or is it relationships?
When I sort my house stuff I pick out what could go to Restore, or Humane Society, or alas the landfill. I could get too serious about this, or enjoy the interactions with the folks I meet, who help me to learn.
I have a challenge letting go of relationships. I can tend to go into bad/good, right wrong, instead of letting the natural cycle of growth be what it is. It just is. Then I wonder, is that my energy that has the challenge letting go? Hum I see alot of energy that says "Don't change (become aware) we like you just so, so it can stay like we like it.
Who is that? Saying that?
I see you.
I am not in agreement with this.
I have a new vision -
Do you have a vision?
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