In my dream, I am sculpting a turtle, it is pretty big, like a see turtle.
It is up side down. Apparently I have made the shell first, it is rather fragile, I keep running into it as I reach inside to make the body. I pause and walk around my creation and notice these decorative images sort of like two dimensional Indian dancers - all the same, repeating around the outside of the turtle. I don't like these, they feel obsessive compulsive - repeat repeat repeat- ugh, I can feel it, over and over. I edit them( mush them back into clay). Thinking that is not what I want to express. I don't need all that decoration, but it was there, some part of me made it Is it that simple to just delete that pattern? Or do I need to go back and study it, try to solve it, make friends with it. I will take this awareness into my day today and notice if this is showing up. I have been working on my heart protection (shell) so maybe this is part of the process.
I like the idea of create and destroy, is it part of me I am destroying? or my creation? Maybe there is a more gentle and kind way of being with, instead of deleting - there might be some fine resources in those dancing figures to re configure...
MOMENT BY MOMENT, HERE TO SHARE.
This blog is one way I share my self expression. My system of well-being is based on what is showing up, right now. I am an appreciator, having infinite conversations